Ex-escort confession in Toronto

Time has come and I can finally tell you what I feel and what I really feel sorry for. I will begin my story or my confession from the childhood, from the moment when I realised that I'm not the one who is loved by parents and adored by the relatives. Indeed, I had just a mother who... well, I wish I had her as she was a drunkard and every day began with a bottle. And it was natural for her to welcome strangers to the house who just had sex with her and drank as well. Yes, I had a bad example to follow and right now I realize that I could resist becoming the same but then I was a girl. I thought that it was normal, at least till the moment they beat her. So it is clear how my destiny figured out. That's right, I became a whore or, well, to be "politically correct" an escort. I was beautiful and it wasn't hard for me to find a job in an escort agency in Toronto. Toronto is the city of contracts and it is natural that it has a lot of escort agencies. Our job was to accompany our clients most of those were complete strangers who came to Toronto on business trip and they wanted to be "showed around". Inevitably, year after year my appearance faded and by the age of thirty I was worn out, tired of life and absolutely devastated. Other Toronto escorts were young and pretty and they got all the best clients while we, the elders, were ready to accompany absolutely anyone who had money. Right now, I'm 35 and I do not know what should I do with my life. I do not have a job - escort agencies do not need women after thirty. I have some money but even when I was working I could not save a lot to buy an apartment or a house. I do not have a family or even the one whom I love. In other words I have nothing that keeps me alive. And this is really scary. I do not know what to do in my life and how to get back on the track when I have never been on this track before. I do not have suicidal attempts but I can't guarantee that they won't happen in the near future. You see, once the most beautiful girl in Toronto city has become a woman that is devastated, broken and left. No one has ever offered me help.